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Hoosier Musings on the Road to Emmaus

Friday, April 28, 2006

Quandry

You know, yesterday at lunch time I thought I had my mind made up. I really did. After weighing the options, and considering the two really viable houses that we had seen, we had more or less come to a conclusion.

Then we met the Builder Dude-- or rather, Mrs. Dude, who works as his assistant and business partner (Dude is away on a fishing trip with his son). She showed me this sweet little plan for a house I hadn't seen built in that neighborhood when we'd looked there. It would have most of what we need, and arranged in a way that is really attractive...

And now we have another choice. Oy.

So I gave Mrs. Dude a list of things to check for me-- things I'd like to tweak on the plan-- so we could have an accurate idea of features and price. I should have that info later this morning. And I sent home copies of the plans so hubby could see them.

This afternoon, my soon-to-be assistant is going to walk though one particular house with me-- the one we saw Wednesday, that seems to only need a few adjustments. He's a priest, yes; but he's also been in the construction business for many years, and so he'll have an eye for the Things To Be Repaired that I might miss.

Still praying for some lightning bolt insight... We know you want us here, Lord; but I'd appreciate a little more specificity as to exactly where here, please! Amen.

Thursday, April 27, 2006

Playing hooky

All work and no play makes for cranky house hunters; and I think I'm developing the real estate equivalent to snow blindness! So this morning we took time off from house hunting. First we drove up to the Canyon Creek battlefield, just north. There's not much to see there, yet-- just a small shelter, and a marker indicating it was the site of a confrontation between the US Army and the Nez Perce during their attempted flight to Canada (another account can be found here).

So then we drove out east to Pompey's Pillar. The site is closed to cars in the off season, but foot traffic was still welcome, so we walked in-- about a mile from the gate to the rock. It's bigger than I expected-- covers about 2 acres, and is 150 feet tall, according to the literature. We wandered up some wooden stairs (117-- the boy counted) to the place where explorer William Clark carved his name, and then took the second set (111) from there up to catch the view from the top. It's beautiful-- and, with it being off-season, we were the only folks there at the time. A lovely little adventure, and some great mother-son time. there's

Wednesday, April 26, 2006

House hunting is way too much like work

Tuesday: We spent the afternoon with Realtor A, seeing a whole pile of houses-- almost a dozen, I think. The good, the bad, and the ugly. And they were-- ranged from charming to abysmal (yes, I know I asked to see it, but the worst one didn't look that bad in the picture. In person, however, it would have needed some work to come up to White Trash standards). There is one that might work well for us, with some minor adjustments. Emailed bunches of pictures and descriptions home for Bruce to see, as well.

Wednesday: Spent the morning with Realtor B (aka Yenta). She lived up to her advance billing-- bustling, charming and knowledgable. She showed us two houses. One won't work-- too far out, and too much to do in the way of projects and maintenance. But the other is a nice, and might have some real potential It would require more modifications, though. There is no finished space that would work for an office, for example-- an utter necessity for a priest serving four little churches with no office space in any of them. Still, very much worth considering.

In the afternoon we drove over to another of the towns I'll serve, just to see it. We had lunch there at a place called Calamity Jane's (how could I resist?). Good sandwiches, and great homemade soup. Then we wandered a bit. It is a pretty little place, and I wouldn't mind living there. We aren't house hunting in that town, though, because it would be harder than the others, logistically. It's location is more awkward to get to the others, and it's the furthest from Billings (where folks always end up for hospital or hospice or nursing home).

Then we came back to the hotel and emailed another batch of pictures home to my husband, so he could be as confused as I am. I also drew up layouts of the two houses in question. They aren't drafting accurate, but they're close enough to get a feel of how everything goes together.

I also called Realtor A, and asked for an appt with the Builder Dude in a new neighborhood she showed us, to see exactly what we could get for our money if we did that. And I'm praying. Just once, don't you suppose God could make something at least a little obvious??

Tuesday, April 25, 2006

Where are we again?

I'm blogging from the Denver Airport! More precisely, I am writing a post at the Denver airport to be posted later. They do have wifi available here, but I am too cheap to pay the “nominal charge” when I can wait a few hours and use the wifi already included in the price of our hotel room.

The boy and I are midway on our journey from Chicago out to Big Sky Country. Our purpose: to find a house. We really are moving, you know!

The only adventure of the trip so far has been the joy of being "Randomly Selected By The Airline" for special attention before boarding. We were shuttled off to a side hallway to have our computers opened, our shoes and carry on bags searched and all our belongings swabbed down with treated pads for analysis. They also summoned a woman inspector to frisk me-- an experience that was tolerable as, quite frankly, she was not especially thorough. They didn't search the boy at all-- a fact that both pleased me and gave me cause for puzzlement. I mean, I'm glad not to have him poked at; but f I were inclined to conceal contraband, might I not just as easily have given it to the kid to carry?

Fortunately, we did not trigger any further alarms and were permitted to go on our merry way. We were later to the gate than I like as a result-- walked directly onto the plane, at that point-- but this was still 20 minutes before takeoff, so no harm done.

Later: we've arrived at the hotel with no more adventures, and we're leaving in a few minutes for our first appointment with the Big Town Realtor (the Realty Yenta is tomorrow morning).

More later!

Friday, April 21, 2006

RevGal Friday Five: Favorites

At least today, these are mine:

1) Fruit - Strawberries

2) Song - Mary Chapin Carpenter's "I Feel Lucky" (currently playing on my iTunes; no other way to narrow it down!)

3) Beverage - Root beer (summer), or hot chocolate (winter)

4) Shoes - My cowboy boots!

5) Flower - Peonies (because they should bloom here in another week; gorgeous.)

Thursday, April 20, 2006

House hunting in Big Sky Country

Real estate apparently works a little differently in rural Montana.

Here in northwest Indiana, when we decided to sell our house, we contacted a realtor (one of many in the area, of course; but this one, in addition to being very good at what she does, is my sister's mother-in-law, so she's practically family). We signed papers-- LOTS of papers. Then her agency put signs in the yard and an overview in the Multiple Listing Service. Other realtors see the MLS listing and call to make appointments. It's all very structured.

In one of the communities in our our house search, however, there is apparently no need for such formalities. Instead, they have Kelly.

If homeowners are thinking of selling, they call Kelly.

If people are thinking of buying in the area, they call Kelly. Or a local resident (in our case, a helpful parishioner) calls Kelly and provides an introduction to the prospective buyers (us), so they can tell her what they (we) need.

Then Kelly considers the options, brings a compatible buyer and seller together, and a house changes hands.

Usually over a nice cup of tea. And cookies.

It's like dealing with the Realty Yenta.

Light at the end of the tunnel?

Perhaps... by the grace of God. And that's the whole point, isn't it?

One of our adventures lately...

Two weeks ago, another driver coming from the opposite direction turned left suddenly in front of me (reminder to my occasional international reader: this was across my lane of traffic here in the U.S.) and took out most of the driver's side quarter panel and front end. On my tiny car (long ago christened "the oversized roller skate" at our house) this may not seem like much; it has almost no front end to begin with. Nevertheless, it was significant.

Some things to be thankful for:
  • Neither my son nor I were injured. The only aftereffect was some soreness the boy had, from the shoulder belt catching him at the moment of impact. "Seat belts really work, Mom!"
  • My car has been restored to health and wholeness. Lots of body damage, but the frame was not bent, and all the new parts blend well and function properly. These folks did good work.
  • The cost of the repairs was completely covered by the other driver's insurance; so we were neither responsible for a deductible payment, nor will our insurance rates be increased as a result. During a time of financial strain, this is a real boon (insert enormous sigh of relief here).
  • I got to drive a spiffy rental car while the aforementioned repairs were being done (also covered by insurance). It was nearly new, had decent acceleration... and it was a lovely red. Nevertheless, I'm glad to have my roller skate back-- especially when I pull up to the gas pump!

Friday, April 14, 2006

Good Friday

“It is finished.”

Three little words. A simple sentence. . . pronoun, linking verb, predicate adjective.

“It is finished.”

A statement of fact, to be proven or disproven. An uncomplicated concept, easy to understand.

Or is it? What does he mean, "It is finished?"

In purely human terms, we might hear it as relief. Jesus, our omnipotent God, the creator of the universe, lived for more than thirty years among us. A lifetime of unlimited power accepting human limitations (“great cosmic power-- itty bitty living space”); incomparable grace and mercy dealing with misunderstanding and injustice and oppression. And now that life ends through horrific ordeal-- cruel taunting and torture... spikes driven through wrists and ankles, with no drugged wine to lessen the agony... The cup that Jesus had asked be taken from him was not-- and he has drunk it, to the last bitter drop.

Some commentators have called this a statement of triumph. And indication that Jesus had completed all that the Father had sent him to do. And to be sure, he was done... on earth. He showed us how to live, and to learn, and to love... and finally, how to die.

But the work was not yet complete. This was still the final moment of death to come... and then the “descent to the dead,” as the ancient creeds say... and then, at last, resurrection. That glorious moment of restoration and new birth, the conquering moment in which we see confirmed the promise of our own salvation.

We aren’t there yet. Jesus isn’t there yet.

But he’s ready. Ready for the next step. He has done what he came to do, without sin, or compromise, or capitulation... for us. He has committed himself without reservation, wholly and completely, holding nothing back... accepting the worst that sinful pride, and anger, and fear can dish out... for us. He has suffered at our hands, without retribution or vengeance... for us. He has endured all... for us.

And now, he’s ready. To do what no one else can do. To move on... and go to hell, and back... for us.

This is the signal.

It is finished... and so it begins.

Monday, April 10, 2006

The Passion of Our Lord-- Palm Sunday

(Preached yesterday at the Church of Jesus Christ, Reconciler).

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Mark 11:1-11
Mark 14:1-15:47

Palm Sunday. For Christians, it’s a day of contrasts, isn’t it? We begin with celebration, with rejoicing, with what has come to be called “The Triumphal Entry.” People strewing coats on the ground, and waving palm branches, and generally making a spectacle of themselves. Blessed is he who comes in the name of the Lord!

And we end with betrayal, and shame, and death.

We know it’s coming. We’ve read the book-- and maybe even seen the movie. The church calendar moved us into Lent, the season of preparation, back in February; so we’ve had weeks and weeks to prepare for this.

Jesus’ followers didn’t have that advantage. Oh, there were warning signs, certainly. The gospels record plenty of them, both subtle and overt.

But put yourself in their shoes. Jesus has been living with them, and leading them, for years. They’ve been at risk more than once-- and always managed to come away unscathed, able to continue the ministry, the healing, the gently defiant, “in-your-face” teaching that so irritated the religious leaders. They’ve been playing a dangerous game, in direct opposition to their culture, their society-- a society without any Bill of Rights protection. And they’ve been getting away with it.

And now they’ve come to Jerusalem, the capital city, openly and with joyous abandon. They have paraded into the city, shouting and creating a ruckus, waving palms and “preparing a way for the Lord,” as the psalmist says. I’ve read more than one commentator who notes that, in this moment, they’re recognizing Jesus as more than an itinerant rabbi; that this is more in the style of a welcome that might be given a victorious military leader, or powerful state official. With all the fuss, It’s important to realize that this was not simply a religious action; it was also seen as a political statement. In this moment, the Judeans seem to believe that Jesus really is the Messiah-king they’ve been expecting, come to lead Israel out from under the crushing oppression of Roman occupation.

Then, the next thing they know, they are surrounded by soldiers in the Garden. Jesus is arrested, and sentenced, and executed-- their vaunted, miraculous leader, hung between two common criminals to die. And they weren’t ready for that, not at all.

Yes, we read of the warnings, of Jesus telling them what was to come. But we need to remember that the Gospels are written down years after all this takes place. The evangelists have the advantage of hindsight, of looking back to see the signs that were there, of remembering the indicators that should have prepared them for that night. But I don’t think they owned it, that they really understood, in the moment. That week in Jerusalem was such a reversal, as sudden as a heart attack. How could they have been ready for that?

Can you sympathize with that sort of sudden turnaround, the feeling that, in a split second, the world has been turned upside down? I know I can. I think of when my mother died, nearly eight years ago. Looking back, I can recall a few things that might have warned us. Signs of change, small indicators that were overlooked in the day to day functions and busyness of life; things that might have given some hint, if I had known what I was listening for. But I didn’t.

On a Wednesday morning, I was over at her house, helping paint the bedroom closet; everything seemed as usual. Thursday afternoon, my sister called from the hospital; Mom had complained of chest pains, and Jan had taken her to the Emergency Room. I spoke to Mom, told her I loved her, and planned to head up to the hospital as soon as I could find someone to watch the kids. But before I could do that, Jan called again-- and she was gone. Yes, I was forewarned; but even the more overt notice didn’t gear me for what was to come. I can still remember standing in my kitchen, seeing the April sun pouring in the window, and whispering into the phone, one word: “No.” I couldn’t grasp that what I was hearing was real. Even with knowing what might happen, the truth came upon me suddenly, and all at once-- just like soldiers in the Garden.

That’s how I imagine the disciples must have felt. Even if they had heeded all the signs, all the warnings, the reality had to have been far beyond anything they could possibly have imagined. Think about it-- would Peter have struck out, and cut off the slave’s ear, if he had known what to expect? Are we to believe his denial of Jesus was based on understanding what was going on? Or was it a gut reaction, born out of uncertainty and panic?

And the rest of the apostles-- would they have run in fear, if they were ready for what was to happen? They had been told what to expect; and, more, told of the hope that would follow; but in the face of death, they lost sight of the prior warnings-- as well as the promise of resurrection, and the kingship of Jesus that was foreshadowed in the procession that we celebrate today.

So, here’s an advantage we have over the disciples. We have scripture, laying out the story for us, from four different perspectives. We have 2000 years of history, and tradition, and lots of examples in that time-- good and bad-- of what it can mean to follow Jesus. We have all the information we could possibly ask for.

And yet, it’s still not easy, is it? With all that, just like the disciples, we still don’t get it. We can choose to speak, and to listen, to one another in love and respect-- and still we strike out in anger and fear at those with whom we do not agree, or understand.

We can choose (in our voting, in our volunteering, in our values) to work for justice, freedom and peace-- and still we run and hide, focusing on our own security rather than standing against the violence, and hunger, and abuse that exists around us every day.

We can choose a life of discipleship, of acknowledging Christ in everything we do; and still we deny Jesus, and his call on our hearts, preferring to protect ourselves and our comfortable way of life from the changes that answering a call to discipleship might bring.

This is why I’ve often struggled with the phrase that we casually use so often, to explain the sacrifice at the cross: “Jesus died to save us from our sins.” That’s very easy to misuse, and to mishear. I mean, Jesus’ death certainly doesn’t keep us from sinning, does it? Human beings are still racking up the same old sins, committing the same atrocities, falling into the same traps as we ever did-- and every one of us here this morning can testify to the truth that Christians are no less liable than nonbelievers to that insidious pull. No; if that’s what that phrase means, Jesus would stand, quite bluntly, as a miserable failure.

But is it sinning from which he saves us? Or, is it the effect of that sin? Paul comments on this in his letter to the Romans, when he says “For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord.” In other words, what Jesus saves us from is death: the death that is the inevitable result of sin. Not only the cessation of our lives after we are done here on earth, but also the smaller deaths of a sort; the sins that eat away at one's soul on a daily basis.

That’s something that we can also testify, here today: though we are still susceptible to human sin as Christians, we are also witnesses to the forgiveness and restoration that God holds out to us in Jesus Christ. That beyond the death, is resurrection.

I think this is the key to the contrast of triumph and terror that we hear on Palm Sunday: It is by living with us, as well as by dying and rising for us, that Jesus offers us salvation. His death and resurrection offer us restoration in God, and his life shows us how to accept it.

We have this incredible gift laid before us this day. And, though we can neither know nor control what will happen in the next moment in our lives, we have, in this, been offered the clear-cut opportunity of preparing, of being strengthened for whatever that may be. We are offered death-- and then shown that only through death is resurrection possible.

So, the choice is ours. Will we continue to deny Jesus? To run and hide in our seemingly secure world? Ignore the signs, and assume that things will continue for us the way they always have?

Or shall we recognize our own failings, our own sin, and be willing, over and over again, to accept Jesus’ invitation to walk away from them? To deny ourselves, and take up the challenge and gift of the cross, and follow?

Wednesday, April 05, 2006

Praying the psalms

I lift up my eyes to the hills; *
from where is my help to come?
My help comes from the LORD, *
the maker of heaven and earth.
He will not let your foot be moved *
and he who watches over you will not fall asleep.
Behold, he who keeps watch over Israel *
shall neither slumber nor sleep;
The LORD himself watches over you; *
the LORD is your shade at your right hand,
So that the sun shall not strike you by day, *
nor the moon by night.
The LORD shall preserve you from all evil; *
it is he who shall keep you safe.
The LORD shall watch over your going out and your coming in, *
from this time forth for evermore.

Tuesday, April 04, 2006

So, where were we... ?

Hello? Is anyone home?

Yes, I'm still here. Thanks for asking!

I apologize for the absence. The short story is that, though I tend to guard my privacy somewhat less than other of my blogging buddies, there are some areas of our life and times at Chez Hoosier that I do not choose to have bouncing around the blogisphere. And our life has been simply chock-full of those sorts of adventures lately. This has necessarily limited my choices; and, on the occasions that I've found time that normally would have been used for blogging, I've found it hard to come up with something to say when my mind has been preoccupied elsewhere. Hence, the "radio silence" around here.

So... "shareable" events?

Houses: cleaning in Indiana (for sale) and hunting in Montana (for purchase) are both solidly works in progress. Of course, the latter is much more fun than the former. We have had more than 10 years in this house; and in spite of my best efforts, we have accumulated WAY too much stuff.

Funerals: these continue to be a theme here. Last week I officiated at my first funeral, for a patient from the hospital who had been housebound for several years and didn't have a church home. This Saturday I will be at my second. I find that it's both easier and harder to lead a memorial service with such little knowledge of the deceased. Easier, because I have not had to be concerned that my own emotions might distract from the comfort that the congregants are trying to find in the scripture and the prayers and the community gathered. Harder, because it's more work to preach. We do not, in the Episcopal Church, include eulogies in our service (believing they are appropriately reserved to other venues, while worship is more focused on salvation and the hope of resurrection). However, we do certainly refer to and celebrate the life of the dearly departed, and this is more difficult when that life is largely unknown to the preacher.

And now, it's bedtime. More later, I promise.